While the last few months have been a constant post and reveal of what I’m made of as a content creator, I’ve also been battling the balance of social media chaos, building and strengthening relationships, and finding quiet in it all.
Truth be told, I’m an only child and I like to be alone most of the time. However I’m learning that the world of influencing and constant networking does not mix with wanting “alone time” that well. And while I love meeting a new friend who shares the same core values and lifts others as they rise mentality, I experience so much anxiety going into new rooms. Sometimes I leave events feeling fulfilled and excited for follow up lunch dates with people I know are healthy to befriend. And other times I’m drained and hoping I never see certain characters that traumatized me with their bloodsucking and self centered points of view. It’s harsh but it’s an even harsher reality.
So I discussed this inner battle with my therapist and we both agreed that when I can hear and feel God in my being, I can always have peace. When I am unable to connect to that source, then I need to retreat in solitude. There is power in solitude. It doesn’t mean you’re hiding, it doesn’t mean your neglecting or quitting certain areas of life. It means you have found a place of balance and peace. And my therapist also said that often times when you allow yourself to go into solitude you elevate right after.
I’m saying all this to say that it’s ok to step back and recalibrate as often as you need to. Retreat to find peace every day to be able to balance the scales of life. Other wise it will feel overwhelming entering new worlds you dream of and want to succeed in. When you consistently make time to find peace and keep it close, nothing can unground you. No amount of strange characters trying to feed off your light in the wrong ways will not overcome you.
I promised myself that I would take a break from social media every quarter and for the first I did for one week and I gained so much perspective. Now I promise myself to only go to events and spaces that are aligned with my values and if something feels off about it, skip it. Not every event needs to be attended, not every person needs to be befriended, and you don’t have to always prove to people you belong anywhere.
What is meant for you will find you always, even in solitude.